Well first of all I would like to say that this blog will normally not be an every day thing. Mostly a once a week thing unless something comes up and I need to vent or if its really important.
I guess the reason I am posting today is because that fear kicked in. That fear of another ectopic. I keep seeing different numbers and hearing such horror stories that I am about to cry with fear. I have read that about 65-80% of pregnancies go on to be normal pregnancies within the first two years of trying after an ectopic. The thing is I signed up with a sort of message board for those who have also experienced an ectopic pregnancy and, well, it seems like most of them had miscarriages after their ectopic and are on pins and needles if they are again pregnant. But the thing is I noticed most of them jumped into the ringer again after they got the OK from the doctor. I wonder if not giving the body enough time to heal can be the causes for another ectopic and possibly the miscarriages.
I made myself a little note of positive encouragement today. I plan on sticking it under my pillow kinda for good luck and positive energy. It says:
"I will get pregnant. I will have a healthy and normal pregnancy."
I always read that positive thoughts and energy can help for positive out comes. Fingers crossed that it is truly the case. I just feel sick to my stomach with fear. Maybe that is why many people do not try for another baby after an ectopic pregnancy, that fear. I looked up when I would be ovulating this month and according to this my best days are from the 17th to the 20th so who knows right. Chances are I will not get pregnant on this cycle, but I am still going to remain hopeful.
Well for those of you also trying, I send you tons of baby dust and positive thoughts.
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